Quarantine
Hello everyone, my name is Sanity, and here is your first Quarantine Experience blog!
Where to start, where to start... I guess I can start on time. These days, most have more time than they ever had before, staying home with family, friends, or alone. Times have changed, and so have many people's lifestyles! Well, except for people like me. I guess things are just the same as they've always been, just now everyone else is living my lifestyle. It's interesting, too. In the months before the quarantine, this lifestyle has been hollow at best, but as this quarantine progresses I find myself more and more driven to just... do anything. Doesn't need to be productive. Sometimes it is productive. Regardless, I find myself more in control of my life and with more enjoyment than before.
Maybe it's because on some level I just don't feel I have to agonize over a perceived loss of freedom? When everyone is in the same boat as you, it's easier to handle. Misery loves company, I suppose, and I can't help but appreciate not feeling alone in my struggles anymore. (As unfair as that may be to anyone at all). Oh, and let me clarify just one struggle for today: Feeling delayed. On the late train. A classic case of feeling left out. I've never really been in a space that hosts peers and encourages socialization, so it's warranted in my eyes. My experiences are not universal, which leave me feeling out of touch with the people around me.
Though, this quarantine is exactly the linking experience I have been looking for. Maybe it's not the best linking experience to have, and maybe I could ask for a better one... but I'll take what I can get, you know? During and after this, many of us will have this shared experience where we can talk about what we did during the quarantine, what we plan to do when the quarantine is over, what we miss about pre-quarantine life. I, personally, want to come out of the quarantine saying "I did XYZ," or "I did more than I ever have before!" For some reason, that's feasible now.
It feels more than ever like there's nothing stopping me from achieving my goals. No worries of missing out, no urgency to get out into the world as soon as I can, no... no nothing! It's the funniest thing too, because while it feels like my overall environment hasn't changed, my life is changing ever so slightly. I want to document these experiences, too, for many reasons. I want this optimism, this inspiration in me to be shared. I want to put this all out there, for the people like me, who are under-socialized. For the people who have found each day harder to get through, for any reason. For anyone under the sun.
If there's even a chance someone can read this, and maybe it inspires something good in them, that'll be enough. If I can spread any message of taking your time, finding the silver lining in any situation, and just doing anything at all even if you don't think it will matter... that would be enough. Remember, especially now, you are not alone. Remember than things can change, even when it seems like each day is the same. Find something, anything good today, and hold onto it! Make the best of these times, as dark and scary as they can be.
Most importantly, take care of yourself. I'll see you all again soon.