feverdream of you

I started feeling sick just last thursday (which is today), but I feel like i've been so unproductive with my time still. I think I'm starting to get addicted to caffeine too, because I've stopped smoking cigarettes and I quit weed last october after I first got sick. some backstory: I went to a specialist and he said that my body was essentially producing calcified masses, stones, in my mouth, and a surgical procedure would need to be performed at some point, so if I was smoking or vaping it would be best to stop right away. at least then I had pain medication and a reason to miss a week of classes. With this illness, I've just been having fever dreams and lost memories of the past 3 weeks. :/

today I had to sit through my least favorite class: it's taught by the department chair who's like 70 years old and she has a major thing for women's lit which is fine but an absolutely terrible thing when I'm supposed to be getting an all around education on books that will help me pass a GRE test for applying to graduate schools. but there's nothing I can do!! because she is the department chair!!! having some intrusive thoughts abt warfare too, probably because I keep reading new york times headlines everyday, and it's not so good...
maybe things will improve next week, once I speak with my advisor. then again, the forecast calls for rain....