asexual thoughts kinda?

So I had just seen a tiktok about being black and ace and as another black ace person i related. But I find it funny because I didn't know how crushes were supposed to work until like June 2020. I guess that's a little late considering I'm almost 16. But I thought that you see someone you like but as a friend. And you become like mega friends but with the bf/gf/s.o. label? Like there have been people I liked but not really because I really had no interest in dating them or touching them in any way. Sure the occasional hug is cool if they want it but I have no interest in holding hands in a non-platonic way. But no, when you have a crush on someone apparently you're supposed to want that? I really didn't know until now and the concept is still a bit confusing.
I suppose this is aro thoughts but I'm not quite that either I don't really know. But then in June 2020 had met someone, well I actually met them June 2019, but I start thinking of them in a crush way (but not really because I have no clue when it started)? And my 14 (well basically 15) self was like "woah" like an 8 year old would feel seeing their crush but except online. So yes, very confusing time. And at this time i identified as Bisexual because I didn't think about my lack of sexuality or romanticility (?) I thought about my platonic feelings which was everyone.