grief (vent, no typing quirk)

so uh- my s/o, he's part of a system and went dormant, they don't know when he'll be back. i always thought i'd be able to move on quickly if this happened but im struggling a lot right now. me and him had a fuck ton of plans and i guess it kinda hurts that i might never be able to meet him in person and do all the stuff we planned together.
not doing as bad as last night but you know, i could be doing a lot better. don't really know what to do now though. woundering if this is what it feels like to have a loved on die or go into a coma? all i know is it really fucking hurts

update, it was just a scare he's okay :)